This afternoon I got the scariest day of my life. It started with a comment I made to my oldest son which ended quite horrible. I’m sharing this because at the moment I have no one else to talk to. I feel okay now because time has passed plus I prayed The Lord is My Shepherd. The prayer helped me a lot as I calmed down after I finished praying. I thought I was going to be okay, but I had my back to him as I knew where the conversation was going, but he started talking louder and louder and walking closer to me. That’s when I stopped commenting because I didn’t know if he’d lose it and hit me. He’s gotten angry before and thrown things down to the floor. This time was different. Once I stopped commenting then he finally stopped hollering. I don’t even know what he said as the hollering went right through my whole body. Thats when I had to hold it together and be quiet. He finally went upstairs which was a relief. He gets angry especially if I have the last word.
The whole argument wasn’t anything to argue about, but because his dad isn’t around anymore he wants takes control of everything. And he especially gets angry at me when I can’t hear what he’s saying or I forget that he told me something before. It’s a sad situation.
Our sons had the best life we could give them so they had nothing to complain about. My husband and I promised each other that we would never curse each other out or holler at one another, and we didn’t.
I just remembered that this conversation may be too long and get cut off.
So I will end with that I made up my mind to live in a retirement community. I would rather live in a smaller house by myself, but right now I need help because I hurt both rotator cuffs so hard to lift things that’s too heavy. Maybe later I can get a house by myself.
Anyway, thank you for letting me vent so I feel that I shared and let this go, and praying.
Love you guys and all in the Gutter world who I know. 🤗💕💖🙏✝️